Wat is it that makes us have goals in life? Everyone has something that they wish to aspire to. Wat is the reason for this? I no that one of my goals is to live forever. I don’t mean it in a literal eternal life sort of way, but I want people to remember me for all time. I want to be a legend. I think that in a way, this is living forever. There are several people that r examples of this, Blackbeard the pirate, George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, napoleon, and even Stalin. All of these people r dead, but their memory lives on in textbooks, stories, and even in the lives of countries themselves. I don’t really no how I will accomplish my goal, but I will. I wonder how people decide exactly wat they want out of life. To me it was always just that way. Is it the same for others? Or do they sort throu a meticulous process until they finally find exactly wat it is that they want. Maybe they take the dream of somebody else.
posted by emperor @
Mittwoch, September 01, 2004
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things have been hard on me latly. i supose thats unfair to say. ive been hard on myself latly. and i think that im going to hav to be harder. i guess ill give u a couple examples since u askd so nicely. wel for one, im turning eighteen soon and that effects quite a few things. for one, my eagles scout ness. ive finishd the project, but i need to do the paperwork and also the getting approved and stuff process. after i turn 18, i cant do this anymore. its kinda scary. im gonna have to start to hurry and finish all the crap i have to and fast. my dads been on me about it too and i hate it wen he does. its not like hes being mean or anything, hes actually quite reasonable. it just always seems like i let him down. i hate that. also i have to find a nuu car. this seems easy at the sound but it can be quite a pain in the ass. ive been looking for about a month and ive found a few good looking ones, but most r out of town so its kinda hard to go and see wat condition theyre in. i really want things to settle down so i can just get into a routine. im always so tired now and im not sure wat else i cna do about it. i wish i could do everythign that needed to get done int he day but i cant even do that anymore. its not like i dont have enough time, its that i dont have the rite hours to do it in. between school and my job im left with very few hours. im sort of lost on how i can manage stuff in between when i have an hour break between school and the time im sposed to start work. its frustrating, but i do need the money. that is one good thign latly, is that ive hads money that im able to use. its a nice thing not being completely broke all the time. also another thing i have to worry about after im 18 is the whole being arrested thing. its complete bullshit and i dont no wat theyre going to or trying to dow with it but i guess that ill just have to wait and find out. i fucking hate cops. they say that theyre supposed to help the community, the general public. all they care about is getting money. they should be out chasing people who harm the community like rapist murderers and lunatics. instead they concentrate all of their efforts on one minority that generally doesnt hurt the public. and wats the only reason they do? oh, i think its because they can make the most money not only from the arrests, but from the drugs they sieze. where do u think that the drugs go. just.. away? no. they put them back out there, ultimately not helping anyone, anything, and just being general asshole pig fuckers. fucking cops. now i must say one more thing. there r cops out there who still do want to help the public. now theyre about one in 100, but there r a few out there. ive met one, in my entire life. one. i think thats completely outrageous. maybe its just me thou. maybe ive just got fuckd up ideals morals and ideas. hmm. nope. cops r just fucking pigs and thats it. thankfully enuf, skool has been pretty good to me so far. its kinda hard to stay on track by urself, but u kinda get used to it. its a really laid back environment and everyone is rather mellowcool, but u still have to do work. im glad that i actually did get into tlc. well its time for my next class so time to sign off.
posted by emperor @
Mittwoch, September 01, 2004
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