well after that uber long rant i feel like som music. so heres som lyrics.
also to those whom it may concern, i am offering free computer generated artistry. all that u need to do is send an idea or suggestion to austinx@austin.rr.com
anyway, on to the music:
i hurt mysefl today. to see if i still feel. i focus on the pain, the only thing that's real. an needle tears a hole. the old familiar sting. try to kill it all away, but i remember everything. what have i become, my sweetest friend. everyone i know, goes away in the end. you could have it all. my empire of dirt. i will let you down. i will make you hurt. i wear this crown of shit. upon my liars chair. full of broken thoughts, i cannot repair. beneath the stains of time, the feelings disapear. you are someone else. i am still right here. what have i become, my sweetest friend. everyone i know, goes away in the end. you could have it all. my empire of dirt. i will let you down. i will make you hurt. if i could start again, a million miles away. i would keep myself. i would feel again.
-nine inch nails ''hurt''
posted by emperor @
Montag, August 18, 2003
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hello friend. today has been wat i would is the longest day of my life. between having to figure out how to put skool together and watching a friend nearly die, its been a stressful day. first i must apologize in advance 4 any ramblings that make no sence for u see i havnt slept in quite som time. well to begin with, my day started abouut 11 in the morning yesterday. it started out simple, as most days do. caarl and i went to pick the fabrick 4 the costumes being made 4 us. once we finishd that mom took us to sonic 2 get food for others. i ended up with a shake wich was really good. she then took us back to carls house. where we messd with the nes that we found. it didnt really work, thou i just recieved recent nuus that it is sorta working now. anyway. jon called and askd if he could stay at my house since his dad was out of town. i agreed and we pickd him up from his house. after that we walkd around carls nieghborhood and found neat stuff all over. we later com to find that jon is really drunk, so we sorta shrug it off and go to taco bell. we eat there and then get ready to leave, but then i remember that a friend workd at the pizza hut next door. so we went to see him. we ate a few cinimin sticks and talkd 2 him and then left. we then wanderd around for a whhile and found ourselves back at carls. i call my dad so we may get a ride 2 my house and he coms and picks us up.by the time that he picks us up its about ten or so and so we get home late. well then jon continues to drink despite my warnings of skool the next day. i, irresponcibly, sit and play video games as he continues to drink. after he's downd about 6 more fl oz. i end up taking it away and hiding it from him. he calms down and then goes to sleep, or so i thout. i start reading comics playing games and watching tv 4 about the next 3 hrs. wen i decide i had better sleep b/c of skool i lay down on my bed. as soon as i do i hear this hick urp sound of jon vomitting. this really agitates me, especially since i had warnd him earlier that i would "beat the living fuck out of him if he vomited on my bed". i quickly jump up and drag him into the bathroom so he wont vomit on my bed as well as choke on it. i end up holding his head over my toilet for 2 1/2 hrs while he continues to throw up brownish red liquid/mucas. after regaining som self composure i grab my fone and start to call ppl who i think may be able to help me get him to a hospital. the only ppl that anser r brian and andy. after a short dialogue with brian and the confirmation that he couldnt help, i called back andy. i talkd to him for a while and he brout me down from the slite histeria that i was feeling. we pland out a way to get jon to the hospital and then calld the cab. i talkd with the cabbie for about 20 mins and convince him to take jon to the hospital. he hesitantly acceptd the offer, most likely because i offerd such anextravagant amount of money for a trip to the hospital. the rest of the nite i cant sleep b/c im worried that jon is not dead and that he made it safely. i cleand the bathroom as well as everything he touchd and got ready 4 sleep again. i didnt sleep 4 as soon as i lay down i noticd that it was nearly time 4 me to rise again. so i layd there in my bed til my father came in to rouse me. i went to skool early and ended up meeting carl again and then thourouly explaining everything to him. in hindsite i shouldnt have because there wer a few other ppl listening to me but i cant change that now. well skool starts and we go to the alfabetical classes 4 20 mins. afer we all got ouro cards and such we went to 1st period. my hist teacher is this really layd backk slow guy. he seemd pretty cool. just a note: in all of the classes all we did was collect and explain papers 4 begining of the yr. all cept german, but ill get there latr. so next i go to precal. i ended up with this skitzo lady who wont stop talking. she ended up being most all of the bad stereo types of women. it was really bad. afer that i went toenglish and talkd to carol. the teacher was pretty cool too. so it was fun. dull but fun.then lunch. me and genni got our pics taken for cards and then came back. i nibbled som really bad cafeteria food and we all talkd a bunch. it was pretty good. next i went to chem wich was rather lonly. i didnt hav any friends in there. after that i went to web mastering. it was cool cuz i talkd to shelly and i got to bethe special guy who does the thing. after that i went to german wich was really fun. cuz i ended up helping herr with names and such and it was really funny watching him. we learnd the alfabet, wich was cool. well at the end of class jon calld me so i talkd to him as soon as i got out of class. he was ok and stuff and so i talkd to my dad about it and told him basically everything. we talkd 4 a while and workd things out. i then calld his mom to talk to her and tell her wat had happnd as well. she didnt no the details. afer havin a lonvg discussion with her i finally started my mound of hw. i finishd most all of it and it wasnt that bad. but its been a strange first day of skool. so how was ur first day back?
posted by emperor @
Montag, August 18, 2003
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